I am feeling very fragile at the moment. I feel like all my friends are abandoning me.
I hadn't heard from one of my very old school friends since my wedding in July last year, she didn't send a Christmas card and when she didn't send a birthday card I decided to text her. In her reply to me she said that I had upset all my old school friends at my wedding. This was so upsetting to me and for the last week I have been racking my brain trying to think what it was at my wedding that I did to upset them. It was such a busy day with everyone rushing about I didn't get time to speak to any of them until it was time for them to go, so this is the only thing I can think that might have upset them. But I don't think this would warrent her never speaking to me again. She has done things that have upset me in the past so I think I really should just let the friendship go but I am very confused, upset and a bit angry too because I feel like there has been an injustice.
I haven't heard from another of my friends since before half term either, I posted her a pair of shoes that she left at my house and even though I sent an email and text asking if she got them I haven't heard from anything. So now of course I am thinking "of no, did I do something to upset her" because clearly I am capable of doing this without even knowing it.
Yet another of my friends emailed me asking why I hadn't replied to her past emails and I feel really bad, I kept forgetting to reply to her because it has been really hectic, I messaged her on face book and she hasn't got back to me, even though I know she has signed on. I have tried ringing her but there was no answer.
I don't have many friends as it is so I am feeling so anxious now that I am losing them all.