I have been feeling really sad about my friend who I lost about a year and a half ago, you can read about it here.
I have been thinking about her and stewing over it again and thinking of things I could have said and didn't, or could still say but won't; I just wish there was something I could do with these feelings. I remembered a poem someone wrote on the selfsufficientish forum that I visit and thought I would share it with you as it made me fee a little better:
“Reason, Season, Lifetime”
People come into your life for a reason, a season or a lifetime.
When you figure out which one it is,
you will know what to do for each person.
When someone is in your life for a REASON,
it is usually to meet a need you have expressed.
They have come to assist you through a difficulty;
to provide you with guidance and support;
to aid you physically, emotionally or spiritually.
They may seem like a godsend, and they are.
They are there for the reason you need them to be.
Then, without any wrongdoing on your part or at an inconvenient time,
this person will say or do something to bring the relationship to an end.
Sometimes they die. Sometimes they walk away.
Sometimes they act up and force you to take a stand.
What we must realize is that our need has been met, our desire fulfilled; their work is done.
The prayer you sent up has been answered and now it is time to move on.
Some people come into your life for a SEASON,
because your turn has come to share, grow or learn.
They bring you an experience of peace or make you laugh.
They may teach you something you have never done.
They usually give you an unbelievable amount of joy.
Believe it. It is real. But only for a season.
LIFETIME relationships teach you lifetime lessons;
things you must build upon in order to have a solid emotional foundation.
Your job is to accept the lesson, love the person,
and put what you have learned to use in all other relationships and areas of your life.
It is said that love is blind but friendship is clairvoyant.
Thank you for being a part of my life,
whether you were a reason, a season or a lifetime.
I wish I could let go of her as easily as this poem suggests. I wrote her a long letter back in August trying to explain myself and saying how sad I was that she didn't want to be friends with me anymore, but she never replied to it, the wound still feels really open and sore and I am not sure I know how to heal it. I miss her.